It was 3 in the morning and my eyes were still wide open, glaring at the ceiling. I turned on my right and he was sleeping. The calm look on his face was giving me cheers of satisfaction and security. I pressed my body beside his and placed my head on his chest absorbing his warmth and the lub dub of heart.
The other moment a hand enveloped me passing over my shoulder.
“No, woke up by a dream. Lets sleep. ”
“Don’t worry. I am here.”
Yes, you are. Right now.
“Ok”, he was asleep by now.
Anurag got transferred to Chennai and as a result this was our last night together. Tomorrow he’ll be sleeping over some new uncreased bed sheet miles away from me. The only thing uniting us would be the immense sky. For me everything would be same except my life. His smell would be in my breath but not in the air. His radiance would reflect through my eyes but he won’t be near. His heart would beat with the same pace but I won’t be around to hear. All these years which we spent together were like a rollercoaster ride for me. There were lows and highs in my life but the only thing which gave me the direction to look through the possibilities was him. Holding me on my breaking points and sometimes letting me fall like a guide. The long never ending fights some reasonable and other out of jealousy. The love which spoiled the hidden child inside me. And in all this I almost forgot that there would be a point were our paths will split. The mere thought of not having him any longer has already started excoriating my heart. How will I survive? I may walk but it would no longer be a journey for me.
But what was making me more nervous was the thought that
Would he still love me?
Some where deep in the heart I knew that this was the starting of our END. I closed my eyes and a tear rolled down putting me to sleep.