Fooling Around

When she was lying in her bed with running thoughts in her mind..he was on the bed with a woman with running fingers.

I was nothing till I felt you on,

I lived in you, you were my home,

Till the time I tasted that I wasn’t the only known.

The lips which warmed me were not for me all alone,

The hands which touched me every now and then had traces of some unknown.

Puff was different this time,
It had the scent of lying.

Why? Is the word which kept ringing in my mind.

Did I do something vice which made you cross the line.

She-  HE is my story.

He- I am a man with stories.



There are times when all of sudden you start feeling something deep down in the heart. But fail putting them in words. ♥️♥️
When the heart sinks watching a plane go away. 

The moment when you want to be a bird and fly high in the sky. Playing hide and seek with the clouds. 

When a song takes you to a faraway land in midnight watching the stars.

When the silence speaks much more than the words.

When your heart can match the heartbeat of the other person.

When you start feeling his pain and happiness in your body sitting miles away.

When all this starts happening with you. Stop because your search is over. Your struggle of finding words is over.



I asked him to stay. But he didn’t listen, ready to go with his bags. “Just hold on” I pleaded, “Don’t go please”. 

“I have to Nia, you should have thought before doing all this to me”, he said with tears in his eyes. He pulled up and loaded the bags in his car. Tightened his seat belt while looking at me, but this time the eyes were filled of both anger and pain. He looked away and started his car. 

” Jye”,I shouted but he didn’t stop and all of sudden everything around me became blurry. I collapsed.

The next morning, when I opened my eyes I was in a room lying on bed surrounded by number of machines, glucose pipe injected in my hand and smell of floor wipped dettol. Yeah..right I was in hospital. Half an hour later a nurse came to my ward with a tray carrying a syringe and few tablets. 

“What happend to me??”, I asked impatiently.

” Nothing you just fainted.” She replied injecting the syringe in my left hand.

“Oh..yaa I know the reason that might be because of improper diet. Right? “, I confirmed.

“No mam you are two months pregnant”, she corrected.

” WHAT???”, I shouted  in distress. 

“Hey ..wait who got me here?”

“Your husband mam. He is waiting outside. Should I ask him to come in? We haven’t told him anything yet. He was busy in completing the formalities initially.”, she said.

“Yes and please don’t tell him about my pregnancy. I want to give him this good news myself”, I replied .

How is that possible? Oh god I got so busy in setting our new apartment that I didn’t realize that I missed missed my periods. 

She left and Abhay got in the room after five minutes .

“Hey sweetheart, how are you now?”, he asked with smile.

” Yaa, I am good now,it was just improper diet. Don’t worry”, I lied.

“No worries, I am here to take you home. All formalities are done. They’ll discharge you in an hour.” He said.


Hey wait did I tell you who is Abhay. No. Right? He is not my husband but would to be. :-/

To be continued ..



(One night watching the sky they forced me to think)
Sometimes its so hard to understand the creativity of that karma mentor. The things which give us pain takes the pain away too. Strange ??

Our own statellite – the moon and its ever accompanied twinkling hot balls ✨are the best example. For some people all these are just mere universal bodies but for the others symbol of peace, pain, love and power. As the sun goes sinking in the other world, its no more the gravity holding their souls but the sphere. 

On one hand when we love someone. We swear on these lifeless bodies and make promises to bring them down to the earth for our loved one’s.

But in pain they turn out to be our enemies. We fell like crushing them into pieces and remove the traces of their existence.

This shows that our feelings can be never same for a thing untill and unless we want them to be undying. Our perceptions keep on changing according to our way of understanding. God has hidden both sisters together ( negativity and positivity ). It just depends on us whom who we start searching for.

How ??

Take the example of stars only instead of shouting and blaming them for increasing our pain, if we open our heart to them and talk to them as friend. The result would be some what different. So people :-

Change your standpoint ..life will automatically change.


Catastrophic love

Love is not red all the time.. It becomes dark when it comes on its on condition against the will of divine.

In the coldest of the places, where the fire flies survive.

Under the warmth of the moon my naked soul lies.

Carefree and full of life, rejuvinated by your only sight.

I can feel the flush without touching you. Can you hear the speed of my blood rushing through ??

Such an intimate moment is passing by.. I want to hold it still till you in real come by my side.

Once you are here i’ll erode you whole.. Passing in out you exploring you all.

Come to black and leave the light..remove the peel of goodness and love me with your darker side.

I’ll lock your soul and make the body pass, to have you forever..forever till the last.

What a brutal selfish love is mine..I feel pity for the soul who remained unaware of glitterish love and eyes soothing shine.

I wish I wish  

I could have gained you during my life.

This failure might have felt a bit less painful then this suffering time.



Poking Noses

What lies exactly are??

  • Flavouring a truth with lie flakes.
  • Cooking up your own hypothetical story with no head tails.
  • Tricking others mind with your statements 
  • Peircing others faith
  • Shooting one’s soul with lie coated bullets.

Well let me put it simple – lies are our own kind of truth with different perception . why??

Because we love lies. We love spicing up the reality according to our own taste. To make others feel low or to disgrace someone under the veil of envy.

I am not against the truth but in the favour of healthy lies. Tell the truth with your own flavours. Lies upto some extent can be life saviour  and are acceptable untill and unless they don’t murder someones feeling and break them completely. Lies that make someone smile without any harm to their faith are considered under good deeds. Be careful with the words you utter. 

But lies in 70% of the cases create hurtful circumstances. We human’s are so sick headed that to prove ourselves superior we can bow down to any extent of savagrey. Spreading rumors about others instead of helping the person in correcting their mistakes is our favorite time pass. Not only this we love giving our touches to their secrets too to make it sound interesting and colourful. Gets so much involved in the gossips of other’s life that we completely loose our interest in moulding our own lives. Have grip on your own condition and don’t let yourself to be called as mound of stupidity.

So people just stop doing such kind of shitty things and be happy with yourself because you never know when the tables turn and you turn out to be the victim of the situation.

Lie and lie alot to make someone’s life better than hell. 

 Keep calm and tell healthy lies.


More than just a teenager suffering 

I love you.

I love you soo much. Each time I wrote something, it was for you. But posting the letter to your place was as easy as catching a fly with one hand. Wrote to make you realize my ache due to the prick you made inside my heart. I have to live with that throughout my life now. It might sound funny but I am no more that small girl whom you could trick and play with your talks. I am grown up now. Grown up enough to understand my emotions. Emotions for you. I am so tired of crushing my love. I hope you understand my suffering once in your life just once. I want you too feel the rate of my pulse in your veins someDAY. I knew that I was never good enough for you to carry on further so keeping this a secret was the only option but you were all I had in last. Just you. Trust me I would never blame you for what I did to myself. It was never your fault. Being a teenager its hard to figure out what is right and what is wrong. But now I am smart enough to understand the life. 

Some feelings are so quite that they can’t be expressed. I had something for you which I know you would have never felt for me. An unknown onesided connection was formed between us two . Your excitments made my heart pump faster. Each time I have to gulp back the fire to catch breath for my survival. The cardiac wanted to pop out of my chest. Your sorrows made my heart sink like I am hollow from inside. Though you never shared your pain but I felt every bit of it by just looking at your face. You hurt me many times. I know this is strange to read as you don’t even know my name but I won’t reveal it now as its too late. Seeing you with someone else gave me stabs everytime. This is what love is all about living with the shadows by letting the things go forward. My life is taking a blind turn now and I am not allowed to make a choice because someone else did it for me. I am into hell where I have to pull through. But no matters what you own my spirit now and I’ll love you till my last breath. 

Anonymous ❤